I couldn't eat I thought it would fall out. He got us tequila and beer. This was what I needed? I was happy to lay down, have food and drink! We drank alcohol throughout the night. I was so smashed I wasn't feeling the agony so we went dancing at Mario's. That night I was in massive pain, but continued drinking and doing cocaine. I didn't have anything to live for without my children. It took a year to hold my head up without help.

With no occupation, cash, vehicle or home I hitched to Kentucky to find my children. I found Katy's brother who told me where they were. Karen came to the door. I was standing knee deep in snow solidifying. Karen said; "Typically I wouldn't let trash in, but the situation being what it is I may let you look at them. They're sleeping in the cellar don't wake them." I said; "My children are on the missing kids rundown and I'm their mother."

The law told me to get them back I had to battle for them in the state they're in. Katy worked for Bell South as an administrator. Bell South enabled her to move each time she's searching for me. Katy got home that evening to find me there. I said; "You stole my kids while I'm on my death bed." She said; "You had no way of dealing with them, Woody and I thought this was ideal." She refused to believe her precious son was violent.

Watching them rest in warmth with food I could only have consideration for them. I went to look at Billy and Chastity after two years. Many times I stared in their room in Florida where their possessions were abandoned and cried. My children were in the hands of Katy who abhorred me energetically. I've lost my children, a piece of me! Katy said; "You can have them back if you stay with Tommy for three months." He was at the Vetran's bar in Winchester.

I buried my face in his immense chest as we embraced tears streamed down quick as spilling water. I thought, you lying two bit bastard. He said; "I can't believe your alive." I begged each day to go see my house. It's a prefab brought in two sections. There's two fireplaces, a papa bear and baby bear wood burning stoves. I enjoyed chopping wood. I was on edge watching them back it in and out when a brick broke. It's my foundation I wanted this to go right.