She makes her own decisions, but the author had no choice - a life in the GDR and after 42 years everything is different. Her very own way of life with constant questioning and questioning of the inner and outer chasing around from place to place, from plans to new plans, always doing, always doing - this is how she lives.

The book tells the story of her grandparents from the beginning of the century, the thirties and forties of her mother's family, the stories of her entry into life as well as her childhood, youth, growing up and being an adult with struggles and perseverance. She met her biological father very late in life and had him write down his story in considerable detail, the life of an adolescent in Saxony before, during and after the Second World War.