She was different, and not in the way anyone in the little village could understand. She was the sunshine everyone tried to cover up, the gemstone who was too rough to be loved. The girl nobody wanted near. Except him. The first person to take her in, the first person to abuse and use her, and one of the hundred people guilty of making her condition worse.

This is the story of one autistic child who became an autistic teenager, and then finally an autistic adult. It's a dark story as well as a story of hope. A story of anger and grief as well as love and compassion. This is her story and she won't let anyone tell her she can't express herself anymore. This is the story of one forgotten child who refuses to be silenced anymore.

In this book, I share thirteen memoirs and thirteen poems, all related to dealing with trauma. Here I also want to put a content warning: this book includes themes of  ableism, child abuse, domestic violence, rape, suicidal ideation, and other similar, dark topics. I suggest you read with caution and although these are important things to talk about, I know this warning needs to be here. 

 I'm Trix Joyce, an author and blogger based in Sweden. This is my first English collection of personal essays and poetry. I have been using different names in my Swedish work, though always had a poetic and reflective style of writing according to other people. I write books in the categories of philosophy, poetry, personal essays, and other nonfiction, but also fictional novels and collections of short stories and mainly mystery and fantasy when these come alive!